Today’s prompt is “Your Most Treasured Item.”
I don’t have a lot of items of Pixel. Mainly I have pictures and the memorial box that the Hospital gave me. I treasure the pictures and I look at them on a regular basis. It helps me grieve the dreams I had for him.
But I will say my most treasured item is the memorial box that the Hospital gave me.
Inside the box are his footprints, the clothes he wore (bloodstains included), the wristbands for both of us, and many of the other little things that newborns typically get. Every now and then I pull it out just so that I can see them and remember holding him. The most treasured item in this box is the footprints in plaster. The nurses tried 3 times to get it right since the plaster was to wet. They came in and said that they couldn’t get it to work, but they would give it one more try if I wanted them to. I did. So they tried it again and it was the best one of all of them. Someday, I want to make a reverse impression of it (where the feet are poking out of the surface instead of pressed into) and mold it so that I can paint the feet making them more visible. (Anyone have any ideas on how, let me know). I haven’t done it yet because I am to scared to ruin it since I know there is no way of getting another one.
The last Most treasured Item I have is of course Pixel. We still have to find an urn that we like for him, but he sits on top of our entertainment center and we say hello and good-bye to him when we leave. Sometimes I get the urge to take him outside into the sun, so I take his box outside and sit with him on my lap and just think of the 30 weeks we had together.