“Symbol”

Many Baby Loss Mom’s refer to their pregnancy after a loss as their “Rainbow pregnancy.” The reason for this is — “Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

I do refer to our new little sprout as our rainbow pregnancy on occasion. It is the light that has occurred after our storm.

“Why are you telling us all this and how does it apply to today’s prompt?”

Well.. As much as I believe that this is our rainbow baby, I actually associate rainbow’s with Pixel and Bit.

You see – We did lose Bit early on in the pregnancy, but I feel as though he/she was with Pixel the whole time. I associate Rainbow’s with the two of them because on the day that we believe that Pixel died, there was a huge storm at our place. It only lasted for about 30 minutes, but everything got dark, the wind was blowing trash cans down the street. Lightening was striking everywhere. The rain was coming down in sheets every which way. It was a nasty little storm that just popped up with little warning. After the storm, we went outside to see how things had fared. In the sky, there was a double rainbow. I have seen a couple double rainbows in my life, but none this bright. You could practically see the whole rainbow for both of them.

I associate this as Pixel and Bit playing in Nature. I didn’t know at the time that Pixel had died, but it has meaning to me now. So whenever I see double rainbows, I think of my twins.

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